Berharap..

di tiap helaan nafas sebuah tanya hadir dan menggangu pikiran ku, dan menghadapkan ku dengan banyak pilihan. hidup ini menyenangkan tapi akan terasa pahit dan menyakitkan saat ku tak memiliki arti.

diri ini seolah berontak, selalu menuntutku untuk melangkahkan kaki ini ke arah yang benar, tanpa pernah tau mana jalan yang harus ku lalui dan di mana tujuan kisah ini akan berakhir. hanya berharap takan pernah dapat membuat semua jadi lebih baik.

dalam detik yang ku lalui bersama tangis dan kesakitan memaksa diri ini menjadi jiwa yang berbeda, kesendirian hanya membuat ku terdiam membekukan bagai hening malam. entah kapan semua tanya yang ku punya akan terjawab. ku coba palingkan semua ini, namun hanya ragu yang ku dapat.

kini aku hanya dapat berharap.. dan berharap..

ku berharap saat ku melangkah pergi semua asa memudar dan kisah ini berakhir dengan senyuman..

silvertein - my heroin

the drugs began to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer.

You wont try to save me
You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate.

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine.

You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in everytime.

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

I bet you laugh
At the thought of me thinking for myself (myself)
I bet you believe (bet you believe)
That I'm better off with you than someone else

Your face arrives again
All hope I had becomes surreal
But under your cover's
More torture than pleasure
And just past your lips
There's more anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you
I know that to go on I'll break you, my habit

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

I will save myself.